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memories of him lingers in my minds!!
Sunday, November 2, 2008 @ 1:09 AM
2dae is d bdae of my l8 dad & it marks d 5 mths he left us...
haiz!!
no mttr hw hard i try 2 b strg i'm still weak!!
ya allah pls gv me strength 2 continue on wif my life 4 my loved 1s...
i seriously miz him to d max if only i hv a vehicle so tat i cn go 2 his grave evrydae so as 2 b by his side so as 2 gv me a sense ob satisfaction & strength 2 continue on living!!
i noe i'm being foolish by hving tat kind ob tinking bt i cn't help it...
i aso fail 2 kip my promise 2 my cik yus aka abah 2 mk my mom smile coz she kept repeating tat her smile is being taken away wif my dad!!
wen i hear her say those words my heart breaks into a million pieces!!
ppl says tat times will heal d hurt bt it seems tat as time pass by d hurt is getting more painful!!
argh!! i wan it all 2 end!!
oh allah pls stop all ob dis!!
i'm nt strg engh 2 face all ob dis!!
i'm sori bt i fail 2 b a gd daughter & a follower 2 u!!
haiz!!
i'm such a useless girl who shld nt b in dis world in d 1st place!!
oh abah kuz Mohd Amin bin Yahya i really miz u & i wan u 2 noe tat i won't 4gt d promise i made 2 u 2 succed in my life!!
haiz!!
no mttr hw hard i try 2 b strg i'm still weak!!
ya allah pls gv me strength 2 continue on wif my life 4 my loved 1s...
i seriously miz him to d max if only i hv a vehicle so tat i cn go 2 his grave evrydae so as 2 b by his side so as 2 gv me a sense ob satisfaction & strength 2 continue on living!!
i noe i'm being foolish by hving tat kind ob tinking bt i cn't help it...
i aso fail 2 kip my promise 2 my cik yus aka abah 2 mk my mom smile coz she kept repeating tat her smile is being taken away wif my dad!!
wen i hear her say those words my heart breaks into a million pieces!!
ppl says tat times will heal d hurt bt it seems tat as time pass by d hurt is getting more painful!!
argh!! i wan it all 2 end!!
oh allah pls stop all ob dis!!
i'm nt strg engh 2 face all ob dis!!
i'm sori bt i fail 2 b a gd daughter & a follower 2 u!!
haiz!!
i'm such a useless girl who shld nt b in dis world in d 1st place!!
oh abah kuz Mohd Amin bin Yahya i really miz u & i wan u 2 noe tat i won't 4gt d promise i made 2 u 2 succed in my life!!
